It's so satisfying, more so than sex

Man, I love turning down horny guys. It's so much fun! It's so satisfying, more so than sex.

Yeah, last week I called Lembit and asked if they had any old speakers left over, for my laptop. He said Lauri has broken all and the only ones that are there aren't compatible with my laptop. He said he can look for new ones for me and I said there's no need. And talked to mum today and she said Lembit had bought me new speakers!! Fuck! :D I feel so bad. I didn't need them that badly. It's just my laptop's speakers are so quiet and I don't wanna use my headphones all the time, especially when snuggling up under my quilt and hitting my head on my pillow. I'm thankful but he really didn't have to. At least they were some cheap ones. Mum will probably bring them over this week.
Oh speaking of that... last night I went to bed at 7:30am, was trying to fall asleep when my mum called me at 7:45 asking if she could come to my place. Well, she had forgotten the key to her workplace so there was nothing to do but to let her in. We bought this nice tunic/sweater for me on the internet. Yay!

Um, what else? Oh tomorrow I have to go see my GP about my white blood cell count and prolactine levels. Just basic blood test I guess.

Yeahh, that's about it :)

How are you supposed to have one of those idiots as a parent to your child!?

Okay, I wanna be like an ambassador for child adoption. Is there such a position, such a human out there!? Adopting a kid is the most amazing thing ever! Fuck, I wish I had money, my own place and better health, I would adopt right now. I can't financially even take care of myself so... Yeah and I can't get pregnant myself cause of Olanzapine so... Been thinking about them babies since my last shrink visit.
Oh and I just love when I'm right about people... men. Like this recent dude, I told him I don't shag outside a relationship and if he's after that then it's not gonna work out. He said he was fine with my wishes and now he's not even talking to me anymore. Ha! I knew he was after sex only. Men are just pathetic. How are you supposed to have one of those idiots as a parent to your child!?

so soft and sweet

Oh wow! Just made an amazing dish! Boiled rice. Plus sort of a stir-fry with chicken, broccoli, brussels sprouts, cauliflower, string beans and mushrooms. Salt and about 4 bigger garlic cloves for flavour. Shit it's so good! I love brussels sprouts! It's my first time cooking them and I had so much faith in them. They're so soft and sweet. Ahhhhh, yummmm!

off to google low white blood cell count symptoms... just in case

Saw my shrink today. Yeah was okay but gotta go to my GP for blood tests cause I've been on my pills for forever. Have to check my white blood cell count cause of escitalopram and prolactin levels cause of olansapine.
Yeah last month and in november I was complaining about periods... thing is I had them twice in november cause my olansapine dosage changed to too low and I got all sorts of other symptoms aswell. I learned today you shouldn't get pregnant when on this pill cause you most likely will have a miscarriage. Shit.
Now I'll try to go lower on escitalopram instead.
Yeah I'm off to google low white blood cell count symptoms... just in case.

So early!

So, not last night, but the night before, I ad a horrible time. My head felt all kindsa messed up. Have no clue what happened. And the following day it was crap aswell.
Then last night I felt I started to feel sleepy around 12 and went to sleep at 12:30. And today!!! I'm up since 11am. What the shit!? lol So early! I haven't been up this ealry voluntarily in months. I have no clue how to spend all this time til I have to go to work. Probably just browse the web.