Fishy business

Okay, so here's the thing I wanted to post about for quite some time.
First, let's take a look at this old video:

There are three white fish. I wanna talk about the one who has a little red in the tail, the one in the vid's last couple of seconds.
This little guy fell ill last year. It started hanging out at the bottom of the tank. At first I thought it was sort of hibernating, sleeping a lot cause it was dark in the winter. Don't judge, I don't know fish.
But then it became clear it was sick. I wanted to separate it and give it some medicine or something. But I was told by the workers there there was no point cause it was physically sick. Apparently it got stuck in one of the ships and hurt itself. Before christmas break I was hoping it would die over the holiday cause it looked sick. But it didn't.
T'It was hard to see it suffer. I would feed the fish a couple of time. Not my job in general. And the sick guy couldn't position its body so that the head is upwards to eat the food floating on water. So heartbreaking. It would take it forever to even get to the top. Sometimes the other fish would push it up and around.
Anyway, this year, around valentine's day, it got really...dying. It wasn't just sick anymore, it was flatout dying, in agony. It needed to be killed to end its suffering.
So on valentine's day a guy took care of the fish. I dunno how but I hope it died that day. It deserved to.
But the place needs a certain amount of fish in the tank. So a new one was brought in.

This little red one. This was filmed on its first day in the tank. Maybe a couple of hours in if even that. It will grow a little bigger but it's a different fish. I was scared the bigger ones would eat it but it's alive to this day, luckily. I have fed the fish again to see if the new guy is eating. It is.
So this friends' day was good. The sick fish got relief and a new friend joined the gang.

Weird country, weird people

Also, have been wondering for a while. You know how americans say america is so great and it's so damn honorable being an american. Okay, cool.
Why do you need guns though? Why do you feel the need to to kill another american or feel threatened by another american at all times to have guns?
Weird country, weird people.

Also, because of the school shootings there... Why do people say when one of those sickos murders a bunch of kids that the person is mentally ill or not right in the head or whatever along those lines. Why is mental illnes only valid when shit like this happens? When you don't go out to murder someone you just have "attitude problems" which you need to "get over" and just "be positive" in general and "choose to be healthy". Why is mental illnes only valid when it makes the person hurt other people? Why is it non existent to people when the illness hurts one person or when the illnes makes the person hurt only themselves. Why is it a choice then but when it's mass murder it's sickness? Fuck, people are stupid!

"Go get a job, you crook!"

Well, it's Estonia's 100th birthday.
Was gonna go out and see people swimming but it's -17C and I feel like I'm about to get pneumonia, freaking cancer and AIDS by just thinking about it. Who in their right mind gets naked in this cold and goes into freezing water!?

Ugj, and I've been slacking when it comes to blogging. So in short, I have crazy itches, probably have mentioned it before. Apparently it's still some allergy. Am taking pills for it.

But just in case I'm also taking these herbal pills and drinking herbal teas to cleanse my body/liver. Just to support it a little.

The floors at work have been fucking crazy! So hard to clean and my hands, fingers, palms, wrists, forearms, elbows and shoulders have been killing me. Bought an essential oil to mix with the emollient cream and apply on the joints.

Um, mum's birthday will be in a couple of months. A while ago at a place I clean, there's also a beauty clinic type of thing. Got talking to the woman there. Wanna do permanent eyelashes for mum for her birthday. Will see how it goes. If it works and looks nice, I might do it for myself too :)

Oh my two cactuses. The little one was sent back to my mum's place to recover, hopefully. The bigger one is still in town with me. I have been looking for little cactus pots so I could plant one of it's babies in spring. Maybe I even get to fertilize it and get flowers.

Oh and last week I think it was, I was out in town with mum. Walked to the bus station, she was about to go home. On our way there we walked past a group of three gypsies. Mum said to me, "Hopefully they won't talk to us". She then went inside to make sure where the bus was stopping. I was waiting for her outside. And sure enough on the gypsies came over and asked for 50 cents. I told her straight away I didn't wanna, I didn't have. Cut her off.
Then she wnet on to ask another woman for money. The gypsy was smoking a cigarette and the woman said, "You're asking for money while you can afford cigarettes?" Good question.
The mum came back out and asked if I was bothered. I said yes.
Then we sat and chatted. And again, another gypsy approached us. I saw her wanting to talk to my mum. I covered my mum's eyes/face with my hands and told the gypsy not to talk to her, she was not interested and didn't wanna give her any money. The gypsy quipped back that I would never get married/a man.
Okay bitch. First. I have 80% level of disability, I only have the partial ability to work, yet I work three jobs that are not even part time and I'm on benefits. Why the fuck do I have to give you my money that comes so hard to me!? You are perfectly fine to work yourself and yet you spend your days at the fucking bus station asking people for their hard earned money. And then when we refuse to give it to you, for all the rightful reasons, you "curse" us!? Go fuck yourself, you cunt! So fucking lazy and ungreatful!
Yeah, the bitch walked off and I yelled, "Go get a job, you crook!" Yeah you say I won't get a man which doesn't even depend on you, but I say you won't get money and you won't cause you asked me and it depends on me. And fuck anyone who says this is racist or xenophobic, they play their own gypsy card by "cursing" you. Like it fucking matters! Besides in this day and age, I might be a lesbian. Get with the times, gypsy!

Anyway, that day mum was in town cause she wanted to buy Lauri's girlfriend a birthday gift. We walked into a shop and I was the cutest hoodie, sweater. I told her to buy it. She did. But I also bought it for myself too. lol It was just too cute not to buy. I just won't go to my my mum's place in it, just so I won't make the girlfriend feel bad. I don't care but she's young and she might.

Oh and on monday I have a test day at the post office. Sounds like a lovely kind of work. Sorting the mail. But on regular actual work days I have to be there at 4:30 in the morning. I would literally have to get up at three ir something at night. Normally I haven't even gone to sleep at that time. Oh well.

I guess I'll leave it at that. There's a little cute somehting something I wanna talk about but will put it in another blog entry.

again

Okay so... I'm a little worried. Been having belly aches since sunday. Had major spotting or even flatout bleeding today. And my lower back is aching and everything. Shit! Is it the hormones? Is it the tumor? I'm annoyed. I don't wanna bleed. Sent a long ass letter to my GP. I still ich majorly, all over my body now and have bruises again.