under the scorching sun

Oh goddess. I cannot believe the weather for next week. It's supposed to be all hot and shit. How am I gonna work? It's so hard under the scorching sun.
Plus, lawn mowing is in order for the weekend. I hope it rains.
Blah. And still no sign of my period. I'm a week late. Never happened before. Thinking it's cause of the pills I'm taking. Ugh, I just wish I had them already then I'd have another month til the next one. I'm waiting another week and if still no show Imma go to the gyno.

so not preggo

Haven't gone into work this week. I just feel so lazy and anxious. Maybe it's cause I'm taking smaller dosages of my pills. Have to go in tomorrow or else they'll fire me.
Yeah and I'm still waiting for my periods. I already started to think I'm pregnant.

Only one stripe showed up in the result though, so not preggo.

not a fan of sunny days

Ouch. I'm shedding skin like crazy! That's what you get for working out in the sun. And apparently it will get even hotter. Ugh, not a fan of sunny days.
Plus, where the hell are my periods!?

What the actual fuck!?

We're having a birthday party for my mother's man. So many things go wrong at parties with the family. The mother and her man always have a fight. The man goes into this asshole mode and picks on my mother. Plus the mother is super serious about everything. Me and the man sometimes playfully "flirt". And today the mother got jealous cause of it. What the actual fuck!? I'd never want her man, thank you very much.
Ughhh. I just feel such tension at the parties, it's not pleasant.

Urges urges!

Ugh hnnng! Having sex is not healthy cause you end up wanting more. So I tried to get the lad from last night to come over today aswell but he said it was too nice of a weather outside and he wanted to work. Why work when you can have sex!!!!!?
Then I thought of calling up another fit lad but eventually didn't.
Then this another lad wanted to hook up but I'm not interested in him.
Urges urges!
Yeah...

Been working for two straight days now. Anxiety is getting better by the day. Although I'm nervous about tomorrow cause I will be indoors with about 5 people and I don't do well in those kinda situations.

Yeah, that's about it. Oh and this song is a killer: