sad news

So...sad news. I didn't get my pension today. Why the fuck not though!??!?! I always get it on the first friday of the month! That means I won't be able to go to the cinema tomorrow. Have to go to mum's place cause I'm all out of money.
I hope my contract thingy isn't up yet, that they're just slow.

I'll be good

Ahhh! I better get my pension on friday cause I wanna go see Sausage Party on saturday. I was gonna go with the bro and his chick but he fell ill and the film is on at 8 in the evening so he couldn't come from the countryside anyway.
Ahhhh! I'm so excited! I felt so victorious at the cinema the last time when I went to see Dory. I wanna make this a monthly thing now.
I mean I'm gonna illegally download those films anyway cause I like watching stuff over and over but...ahhh.
I am a little worried about the film being shown so late though but I will take my pills or Valium and I'll be good I hope. :)

it's evening and I don't like it

Ugh it's evening and I don't like it. The last two nights at mum's have been terrible. I dunno if it's insomnia or whatever but I keep waking up feeling sick several times during the night. I've only slept for about 4 hours in the last two days.
I hope tonight I can sleep cause I really don't wanna go back on Mirtazapiin.

change the station

I work at a shop as a janitor. And they play Sky Plus in it cause the stuff they sell has ads on that radio. And I do enjoy listening to music when cleaning. But I think I gotta stop listening to the radio. Like I only work like two hours a day and I'm fucking sick of the songs they play! The just keep repeating the same ones over and over.
I'm at my mum's now and my brother's playing the radio. I thought at work okay maybe they only play those songs at this time but now I'm here and they play exactly the same songs! Oh god! I told my brother to change the station.

They're... crazy bitches

So there used to be a saying about men "All the good ones are taken".
Then I think it turned into "All the cute ones are gay".
And now I find myself saying "All the cute and good ones are single but fathers". And I don't want no baby daddy. I really don't care what his relationship is like with the kid or the mother, just N! O! If a woman  has a baby she thinks she owns the dude who fucked her and got her pregnant for all of eternity for all of his possessions, emotional, physical, material, mental, whatever. I don't wanna deal with those crazy bitches. They're... crazy bitches.