Urges urges!

Ugh hnnng! Having sex is not healthy cause you end up wanting more. So I tried to get the lad from last night to come over today aswell but he said it was too nice of a weather outside and he wanted to work. Why work when you can have sex!!!!!?
Then I thought of calling up another fit lad but eventually didn't.
Then this another lad wanted to hook up but I'm not interested in him.
Urges urges!
Yeah...

Been working for two straight days now. Anxiety is getting better by the day. Although I'm nervous about tomorrow cause I will be indoors with about 5 people and I don't do well in those kinda situations.

Yeah, that's about it. Oh and this song is a killer:

What is it exactly that I do

So, I've been having major shocks since I'm back in the working field. Oh if only I could work without anxiety.
Anyway here are some pics from my workplace:

Little birch trees waiting to be planted

Work in progress

Voila!

I've seen this sight like a million times. I will never forget these endless columns of planted plants.


Plus, a guy was just over. He seems pretty okay actually. Hopefully it won't be just a one night stand.

How do I keep losing money like that!?

Ugh. So the money losing thing wasn't over as of yesterday. Today I bought five euros of credit for my mobile phone and lost it. How do I keep losing money like that!? Ughhhh, seriously!
Had two missed calls from unknown number. Thinking it's the holticulture place. I won't be buying more credit so hopefully they'll ring me again tomorrow.

That's the kind of truth they've all been saying. A truth that is a lie

So there was a bit of drama today. I lost the 50 euro note I had in my jacket pocket. But then I went for a bike ride and found it on the ground. Phew! My mother already gave me such a bollocking for it though. And I already rang my stepmother and asked her to send me some money. Luckily she doesn't have to now.
Been at my mother's since Friday. Didn't go to town cause of my headache. Don't really feel like doing much when I get the pain in my head.
Watched Glee. I said I wouldn't review it anymore. I will do it once there's something good. The last one had me questioning though... that which college lets you enrol in April. I thought the show was supposed to be realistic!? That's the kind of truth they've all been saying. A truth that is a lie.
Yeah... then I've also had major anxiety. Don't know what it is but I get anxiety at my mother's place, can't eat and shit. Tomorrow I will go to town though. Ahh, hopefully this holticulture place won't ring me this week cause I like being lazy. But when they do call me back I hope I will be able to do the job. What with my anxiety and all.
Yeah so.... over and out.

Hag!

I got a bollocking from the mother for still not working. Ughhh, it's not my fault I have anxiety and can't do shit.
Then she gave out to me for not doing something about my anxiety. Like, I'm so sick of it. Don't wanna hear about it, much less deal with it. She wants me to go to a psychologist. Blah.
Anyway, will go to mother's place... today. When I wake up in the morning. It's the mother's birthday on the 13th. She's turning 50!!! Heheeehee. Hag!

And then I talked to my er...owner of the appartment I live in, I'll call her Aunt Ilme from now on. Yeah, I talked to her about my fear or vomiting. She says when she feels even slightly sick she sticks her fingers down her throat and she feels much better straight away. How do people do it!?

Yeah and I've noticed I have a reader from America coming back to my blog, so... Hello there! :)