So early!

So, not last night, but the night before, I ad a horrible time. My head felt all kindsa messed up. Have no clue what happened. And the following day it was crap aswell.
Then last night I felt I started to feel sleepy around 12 and went to sleep at 12:30. And today!!! I'm up since 11am. What the shit!? lol So early! I haven't been up this ealry voluntarily in months. I have no clue how to spend all this time til I have to go to work. Probably just browse the web.

Oh well...

Okay so my crushie at work who I've talked about. Today I went to wish happy new year to the other janitor at my workplace who works in the garage part of the place. When I went in there, my dude was working and the janitor gave him a wave. So I did my happy new years and shits and went to clean my part of the place. Later on I went and asked my co-worker about the dude she waved at, my crushie. I told her it was a secret. I asked her for his name. Unfortunately she didn't remember. But she said they do talk quite a bit, just not lately and if it comes up she'll tell me. What she could tell me though was that he has a daughter. Fuck! That probably means he has a woman aswell. And apparently he's in his twenties. Oh well...

the sex lane cause... men

Okay, this guy I met...Ingemar, he either seems to be really into me or just really wants sex. I kinda lean more into the sex lane cause... men. But dunno, I've only ever met him once.. all he talks about is seeing me again but ugh... I dunno what he wants. I'm not sure about a relationship. Like generally I want it but if I have an actual chance I freak out and wanna run away. Will see.

We rock!

Just got back from downtown, fireworks. Yeah, the weather sucks. I actually wished it was snowy, cause it was flatout raining. Which made the firworks a bit poo poo but it was great anyway. I was scared that the big bangs might trigger an anxiety attack. The fireworks were okay in that department. But it was only when I saw the massive crowds of people that I got anxiety. A little. I kept pinching myself like I normally do, just so it wouldn't get too bad. And I kinda got used to it once the fireworks started. So all was good. I loved the people so much! Made me feel so happy to be a citizen of Tartu. We rock! And thanks to the town for the lovely boom and bang show. Love my town! We're the best. For real. Wouldn't wanna live anywhere else. Oh and two random people, one woman the other a dude, wished me happy new year. Didn't see anyone I knew though. Big surprise there!
Anyway, 2016 was the best year of the last 7 years. The time I've been seriously sick. I've managed to stay calm in shops, or at least go into the shop and buy what I need and want, while mostly staying calm. And I bagged a job which I love and can do. Perfect! And yeah I met this guy I talked about earlier... maybe it'll be something beautiful, maybe it'll be something bad, maybe something forgettable, who knows. I'm entirely happy with 2016. Ooh, and I found MGG! :D That dude rocks!
And as I already said somewhere online, if 2017 doesn't get better then I hope things at least stay as stable and good as they are now.
*kisses* *cuddles*

I hope my laziness won't kick in

So...yeah, I've lost a bit of weight over the last few months. Like a whiiiiile ago my supervisor told me I looked leaner. Then my dad's fam came to visit me at christmas, stepmom said there's barely left of me. And then my mum came to visit me this week and said it's not fair that she has to be the only fat one. And when I met up with the dude yesterday... well before meeting up he asked me how much I weighed, probably was scared I'd be super fat, and I said 70 kilos. When he saw me he said he didn't believe I weighed this much, that I didn't look like it.
Oh well. Good stuff I guess. I'm happy.
Yeah and I just got excited about going outside today :) Like to the town square to see the fireworks. I hope my laziness won't kick in!