How are you supposed to have one of those idiots as a parent to your child!?

Okay, I wanna be like an ambassador for child adoption. Is there such a position, such a human out there!? Adopting a kid is the most amazing thing ever! Fuck, I wish I had money, my own place and better health, I would adopt right now. I can't financially even take care of myself so... Yeah and I can't get pregnant myself cause of Olanzapine so... Been thinking about them babies since my last shrink visit.
Oh and I just love when I'm right about people... men. Like this recent dude, I told him I don't shag outside a relationship and if he's after that then it's not gonna work out. He said he was fine with my wishes and now he's not even talking to me anymore. Ha! I knew he was after sex only. Men are just pathetic. How are you supposed to have one of those idiots as a parent to your child!?

so soft and sweet

Oh wow! Just made an amazing dish! Boiled rice. Plus sort of a stir-fry with chicken, broccoli, brussels sprouts, cauliflower, string beans and mushrooms. Salt and about 4 bigger garlic cloves for flavour. Shit it's so good! I love brussels sprouts! It's my first time cooking them and I had so much faith in them. They're so soft and sweet. Ahhhhh, yummmm!

off to google low white blood cell count symptoms... just in case

Saw my shrink today. Yeah was okay but gotta go to my GP for blood tests cause I've been on my pills for forever. Have to check my white blood cell count cause of escitalopram and prolactin levels cause of olansapine.
Yeah last month and in november I was complaining about periods... thing is I had them twice in november cause my olansapine dosage changed to too low and I got all sorts of other symptoms aswell. I learned today you shouldn't get pregnant when on this pill cause you most likely will have a miscarriage. Shit.
Now I'll try to go lower on escitalopram instead.
Yeah I'm off to google low white blood cell count symptoms... just in case.

So early!

So, not last night, but the night before, I ad a horrible time. My head felt all kindsa messed up. Have no clue what happened. And the following day it was crap aswell.
Then last night I felt I started to feel sleepy around 12 and went to sleep at 12:30. And today!!! I'm up since 11am. What the shit!? lol So early! I haven't been up this ealry voluntarily in months. I have no clue how to spend all this time til I have to go to work. Probably just browse the web.

Oh well...

Okay so my crushie at work who I've talked about. Today I went to wish happy new year to the other janitor at my workplace who works in the garage part of the place. When I went in there, my dude was working and the janitor gave him a wave. So I did my happy new years and shits and went to clean my part of the place. Later on I went and asked my co-worker about the dude she waved at, my crushie. I told her it was a secret. I asked her for his name. Unfortunately she didn't remember. But she said they do talk quite a bit, just not lately and if it comes up she'll tell me. What she could tell me though was that he has a daughter. Fuck! That probably means he has a woman aswell. And apparently he's in his twenties. Oh well...