I wish sex was as simple as in Sims: woohoo or try for baby

Complaining ahead!
Second day of bad periods. I dunno actually if it's cause of the periods, weather or the fact that I take Mirtazapin every other day as opposed to every day. I just feel so nauseous and my stomach is making all sorts of noises. Because of my stomach troubles I'm thinking it's cause of my periods but I dunno really. Ugh.

Yeah, I've been talking to the guy I wanted to be in a relationship with, the one whose name start with an R. All he cared about was being able to have sex without a condom when we're in a relationship. Yeah...don't think that's gonna happen cause I don't want a baby just yet. Or ever. Like carry one myself. I don't wanna cut my tubes either cause it would be like fixing something that isn't broken. Ugh, I wish sex was as simple as in Sims: woohoo or try for baby. Will see how that works out.

anything but romantic

Ughh! I hate the space! It freaks me out. Just watched Vsauce's videos about space. I find the subject interesting and all but it scares me so much. I even hate looking at the night sky cause of all the stars. It's anything but romantic to me.
I don't care about aliens and shit but just the greatness and openness of space is terrifying. I just hate all the commotion going on in space, what with planets and stars and energies and shit. Fuuuuuccckk! Scary shit. I shouldn't have watched it before bedtime. I started feeling really dizzy cause of all the space talk, was so scared that was about to pass out. Ugh.
Science if fucking freaky.

Cute, but a dick.

I'm having crappy periods again. Quite literally lol :D Damn men, the lucky bastards!


Anyway... the family went to Latvia today. I was home alone. Cleaned up a bit.

Yeah I have nothing to say except I have quite a few films I should watch but I just cannot be arsed. I really wanna watch them but I'm just too lazy. It's horrible. And I have two James Franco books to read. I also do want to read them but can't be arsed.

Plus, I thought I had two guys I could have been in a relationship with but one of them got a girlfriend and the other one just wants sex I guess. I'm not too disappointed but yeah... guess no one will really wait for me.

Oh and this one guy...the hot one I've slept with a couple of times...he had enough of me always putting off our meeting. He called it dumb. Well, what's even dumber though is the fact that he agreed to be in a relationship with me and then didn't contact me for about two months. And when he finally did get back in touch he had no recollection of the relationship chat. What a dick. Cute, but a dick.

Yeah so I'll just wait and see what will happen with the one that just wants sex. I think his name's either Rando or Roland.

love, care and respect reasons

Okay, as I've said before, I'm in the middle of watching Friends. Yeah I'm waaay past the episode I wanna talk about but whatever I'll talk about it anyway. Don't remember what the episode was called but it was "the one" where Monica and Chandler were in a relationship and had a fight. Chandler thought it was the end of the relationship and Monica said it was just a fight and "welcome to a grown-up relationship" or something along those lines. Yeah, that's a load of bullshit. I say, the relationships you fight in are anything but grown-up. In a mature relationship you can handle misunderstandings and dissensions without a fight. And if you "fight" with your partner, then why the hell are yous still together!? I hate the sayings "fight for love" or "work on a relationship". It's aaaaalllll bullshit! It's a clear sign you're not supposed to be with the person you're with. Fights do not belong in a healthy relationship. Fights do not happen in a healthy relationship. And a relationship is definitely not something you "work on". If it doesn't come naturally, you're with a wrong person, there's nothing to fix. I know I've only had one boyfriend but as I said in my sex post I'd rather be single than be in a wrong relationship. Me and my ex never had fights. We were both normal mature people. I'd never be in a relationship with a person I didn't get along with. And if you love a person you respect them and wouldn't do anything to hurt them. So any kind of fight is just out of the question, for love, care and respect reasons.


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Polish plums

See...I'm not racist! I'm consuming Polish plums. The purple one is yummy. The yellow one is a tad sour.