Back to the days of regular pregnancy tests I guess

Yay! This bitch got laid. For the first time in years. Um, in 2014 I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't sleep outside of a relationship and I have been keeping it. Til now, sort of. I'm not in a relationship but the guy is not a one night stander.
And he was so nice I just wanted to do it with him. Also, I was scared he'd find someone else to talk to and I wouldn't even get the chance. Kinda like... keeping the guy interested with sex. Lame and insecure I know but he is a nice man and you don't come acorss those that often. So I panicked and wanted to get close to him and thought if I waited to get close to him emotionally first he might lose the interest. I dunno, I'm desperate okay! :D I've been single for like 7 or 8 years and I wanna be done with it! I want a man!
The shitty thing is, the fucking condom came off. And it stayed inside of me!!!! I thought I was gonna have to go to the doctor to get it out but luckily he did it.
Fuck, I just hope I won't fall pregnant cause we were going at it before I realized it had come off. Ugh. Back to the days of regular pregnancy tests I guess.
And then we like cuddled and shit. Was nice. Would like to keep doing it. I wanna like cuddle and watch a film together. Waah!I hope he's interested and attracted enough :(
I dunno if he is though cause he doesn't text me much or talk to me much on the interent, although we do chat quite a bit when we're together in person. Okay I can't talk that much about him on my blog cause he said he doesn't have FB and some other social media sites cause he doesn't like to share his life online. So I hope there's gonna be a lot of stuff in my life with him that I won't be talking about :)

Such boyfriend material

Okay, I met up with this cute and super nice guy. He said he'd want to meet again but... I'm afraid we won't. Ugh. He seems so so so good though. Such boyfriend material.

Bitch, what did I say some time ago?

Omg, I just read that Olanzapine can cause lactation. Bitch, what did I say some time ago? Like in winter or some winters ago? I was lactating! I don't think I ever figured out why at the time.
I was just googling the pill to find out why it may cause spotting. Didn't find that but I will most definitely be mentioning the lactation to the gyno tomorrow :)

We shared the love of smoothies

So I had a date with this guy called Kristoffer today. He was a film director-musician-actor-volunteer-free spirit-globe trotter-type of a dude.
We shared the love of smoothies. Also, he was short, skinny and dark haired. Nice too.
We went and sat by the river in town, in the sun (I got a tan!). He played/sang me some songs on his guitar. then he gave me a massage and cuddled me, on the grass.
Then we went back to my place and made smoothies and ate some food we had bought from the shop. He's a vegetarian. I put milk in the smoothie. He didn't mind luckily.
He asked if I wanted to kiss and I said no lol. Kissing's way too intimate on a first date.
And for some reason I wasn't fully feeling him. Like, there was nothing to dislike but I didn't feel the proper attraction. Yet, anyway.
Oh and he is not a local. He's from Tallinn.

Yeah and then I'm supposed to meet another guy at the weekend. Will see if it happens or not.

And... I have gyno appointment tomorrow. Been putting off shaving til tomorrow :D

the new guy

So here's the new guy. Not as pretty but oh well. It's a... mountain bike? Is this what it's called in english? Before I had a hybird. Mountain&road hybrid.
I bought this at a used bikes shop for 190 euros. Then the next day I went to another bike shop and saw brand new ones for cheaper. Fuck!
Oh well.
Oh and when I went home from the bike shop on this new one, when I got home the tire was almost flat. Went back to the shop next day. There was some tiny shitty ass thorn in it. Fuck!
I hope there won't be any more financial surprises in the decreasing manner.

Oh and can't remember if I mentioned but I had a chance to get a really good job but I didn't get it. Would have loved itbut whatever. I will keep looking :) 700 would have been too much. I mean, I can't get lucky, god forbid!

Oh yeah and on friday I will be going to a gyno cause I've been spotting for about a week now, probably longer. It's definitely cause of going off olanzapine but wanna make sure there isn't anything totally wrong with me cause of it.
Oh and I will be going to my GP next wednesday aswell. I think I'm either allergic to something or have some sort of a fungus. The tops of my feet and the backs of my hands get mad itchy. I have no hives, no redness, no swelling, just perfect normal skin that just starts itching.And when I scratch it gets worse. I only stop til I've broken the skin. Ugh.