Used it

Oh my goodness. I feel so poorly. I actually have sort of a headache. Couldn't sleep last night. Tried to take a nap just now, woke up feeling worse.
Have little problems eating, gagging and throat locks. Get anxiety in shops a little. Can't sleep long or well. Feel sick in general and in pain (abdomen and head). Oh and I have itchy hands.
Oh the funs of a pill withdrawal.
I'm pretty sure I could handle being off the pill cause my health is a lot better but the withdrawal period is super hard to overcome.
Just had to take more Olanzapine. Last time I took a pill was last sunday. Can't go over a week wihout it.

Yeah, also met the guy I was supposed to meet. First time since I dunno when. What, January?
He was super nice. I hope he liked me too. I could really be with someone like him. Like... I was gonna say in a relationship but I'm not gonna be desperate and say I could just spend time with him some more. :)
Like I had super anxiety when meeting up with him but I took loadsa Valium so I calmed down eventually. Oh and I also broke out the mascara my mum had bought me months ago for the first time. Used it. It was all nice, nothing lovey dovey yet or anything sexual so yay! Hopefully he wants to meet up again. He said we should but he jsut could've been polite.
Yeah, I'd hype more about it but I feel too sick. Shit, might even take a painkiller for the head.

Might get confusing

Okay so I'm pretty much off olanzapine. Been having no appetite whatsoever. But not feeling sick. This appetite thing was kinda expected so I'm not freaking out.
Last night though... I had the gagging/locked throat experience again after years of not having this symptom. I haven't eaten today yet but shit! I hope I won't have that symptom for life again. I guess I can almost deal with it for a short period of withdrawal but not for ever and ever again. A little worried.
Also, I might be seeing a guy on sunday. He's names Lauri lol. Same as my bro.
So if I start going out with him it'll be Lauri and Diana and my borther's Lauri and his girl's Jaana :D
Might get confusing in familial context and situations. Yeah I'm supposed to go over to his place to play xbox or something :D I know I'm 31 but I still think an xbox date is better than sex date. I think he's 23.

just in case

Okay, things got a little shitty last night. I took olanzapine just in case. I feel super woozy and weak today. I hope I'll last at work.
Like I took all kinds of pills last night and none of them seemed to work so I dunno now what to take to be able to work normally.
I might take a quick nap before work now.

I have anxiety

Waah, I have anxiety. Like when I went to the Hessburger restaurant yesterday I thought I was gonna have to run out cause my anxiety got so bad I could hardly speak or move.
And then today it's been shitty too. The whole day. Maybe it's cause of my periods, which I'm hoping it is, but maybe it's cause of Olanzapine. I took the last pill on the 15th of July. But concidering I woke up with cramps today and had them throughout the day I'm very much hoping it's all period business.

Must be the codeine

Had the worst wake up call this morning. Woke up to insane cramps. Think I've had this only once before in my life. It's my second day of periods so wtf!?
Took Dolmen (Dexketoprofen). And no lie, my pain was gone in 7 mintues! Holy crap. Best painkiller ever! Must be the codeine in it.
Back in the day when I had the nerve aches in my head and I had to take this pill, it was a prescription drug. Now it's over the counter.