Get out

Well, well... I might get out of the hospital this week or the start of next week.
Hopefully I manage to stay calm and don't have to come back again.
Think I'll be staying with my fatherand visit my mother some other time.
Well, once I get out I'm gonna start working on my sims game. I have a story to continue after all.
I love me some Michael!

All sims

Okay, I'm really hoping for a new computer.

I tried installing Sims 3 on my brother's computer but there were some errors.

Was told that the computer was too old, but I don't believe it.

Okay so... then there's my mother's computer and my other brother's laptop.

I hope I can install the game on one of them.

Just texted my mother to bring the laptop with her when she comes to visit me this week.

Once I have it, will text my father or stepmom to bring the Sims discs.

If it all fails I'll buy my own computer.

But I'll get to do that only when I get my some sort of a benefit money.

Talked to the psychologist and she said she'll try to get illness or disability benefit for me.

I really want my game to finally work cause I haven't had the chance to play Ambitions and there's a new EP coming out already!

Late Night EP

Amen!

Was looking for a sports shop yesterday.

For protein drinks.

I've lost a bit of weight.

I'm about 51 kilos now. My big arse and belly are gone.

Sad face - boo!

Asked for directions from 2 girls.

Talked to them for a bit.

Gave them the address of my forum.

I've given it to quite a few people.

Gotta advertise.

Felt kind of sick all day but didn't get the anxiety in the evening.

Watched TV, maybe that's why.

Saw an episode of Skins, I believe.

It was mostly about this guy called David/Tony.

He was kind of handsome.

Miserable though.

Felt like giving him a hug. Or pity ride.

Well... in reality the pity business would happen the other way round.

And then he went all bastard and tried to kill his brother.

Arse!

Made me feel a lot warmer about my own brother.

Also made me feel like watching the show from the beginning.

Maybe it'll be the new That 70s Show for me.

Change of subject.

Arno rang me two times yesterday.

Didn't answer.

Felt like there's something I don't like and want coming from him.

Like, a lot of "we" business.

Then there's this guy from the new hospital who's... not the nicest.

He's like, "I'm the toughest and biggest" whereas he acts and talks like a 10 year old.

Not for me. At all.

As for Tuljo, he gets out today.

Asked for his number and mail address.

He's not all there, but he's quite interesting.

He said it's not that interesting talking to yourself cause you already know the answers to the questions you're going to ask yourself.

He's always talking and singing to himself.

And as I'm typing this there's some sort of a mass going on in the room.

A lot of talk about Jesus.

They're eating them little biscuits/breads and blessing themselves. 

Amen!

I want Labyrinth and I want it with my brother!

Ahh... the weekend's over.

I can be on internet again.

Googling Kevin McSex.

Weekend was nice enough though.

Went swimming.

With Arno.

He's kind of annoying me though.

He's always like "when you will be mine then we'll do this" and "when you will trust me more" and "when we know each other better".

Ughhhh.

I really don't want a relationship right now.

Or any romantic/flirty male attention.

I wanted to buy a board game to play with my brother.

Arno butted in again with "we". Like, how we can play Dominoes at his place.

I don't want freaking Dominoes and I don't wanna play at his freaking place!!

I want Labyrinth and I want it with my brother!!!

And I decided to call my dad's wife IR my stepmom.

It's just better that way.

Oh and as far as men go, I'm interested in Tuljo.

Not as a man but just cause he's a really free spirit and I want to know about his journeys when he gets out.

He plans to go to England with no money so... I wanna know everything.

The bad barefooted

Nothing much has happened.

Getting a bit healthier I guess.

Eating's not as big of a problem as it was.

Just get really anxious in the evenings.

Taking two tablets - an antidepressant in the morning and a tranquilliser-type-of-pill in the evening.

Had water therapy again.

Was great.

Maybe I'll get to swim again tomorrow.

In a lake, like.

The weather's supposed to be really hot so... I'll stroll away from the hospital for a bit.

Think I'll be meeting the 40 year old Arno I've mentioned before today.

He rang me and wanted to meet.

I won't be taking part in any romantic activities, just going to spend some time with a person.

Oh and I've been walking around barefoot.

Everyone's always commenting on it.

They're mostly kind of like... giving out.

Weirdos.

Oh and as I'm typing this the radio is playing Ellie Goulding's Starry Eyed.

Yay! Go Estonian radio!
"Let's joing forces, we've got our guns and horses... la dee dah"