titty

And in other news, just to document it, my left boob is troubling me.
In February a few days before my periods I got discomfort, pain and tenderness in my left boob. Thought it was weird since I never get sore breasts before periods. Not once have I ever had sore boobs in my life. And it was just one tit.
Then my period started and the pain kinda subsided.
Then about three or four days ago I got the pain back and I'm not anywhere near my periods. Plus, if it was a hormonal thing, wouldn't both of my titties hurt not just one!?
Talked to mum and stepmum, stepmum said they would probably sned me to get mammography done. Yeah, 1. I don't want my sore titty squeezed in any way, 2. My titties are so small, mammography is impossible anyway.
Yeah, we'll see how this plays out.

making magic

Was just watching Harmony Nice's make up tutorial video. Fuck, make up can be soooooo amazing. I like watching pics of nice make up or beautiful videos of people applying it and making magic.
It's so easy to be a girl these days when it comes to makeup, you have sooo many different tutorials for different looks.
But, it's just not for me. I hate it when I have makeup on. I feel like I'm dirty and wanna wash my face asap. I don't feel pretty or anything. The only time that looks make a difference for me is right after shower/bath cause then I know my face is clean, I'm clean all over and I feel happy and confident. A clean face/body is all I need, I don't want shit covering it lol.
Like on friday, mum stayed overnight at my place. She asked me if I had any makeup remover. Seriously!?!? You asking me that!!?! I haven't worn slightest bit of make up in about three years. Not one single thing on my face.

stressing me out

Ugh, life sucks so much right now! And there's nothing I can do about it.
First, I dunno if I will have a job or not.
The cleaning company's expenses are higher than income when it comes to my car shop and they upped their service price. Now they're waiting for reply from the shop. If they agree to it then I will keep working like I am now. If they don't agree I will lose my job. I don't wanna work anywhere else cause I just got use to this place and job, anxiety wise. Took me fucking seven months! If the shop does not agree with the new price they will probably look for a new cleaning company, maybe I can get a job in that new company then. If they do decide to change service I will definitely ring up the new place and say I wanna keep cleaning there.
Second. I still haven't heard about my disability benefits. Had to reapply for it to get more money but turns out I might lose all of it.
Ughhhhh, it all sucks so much! And it's stressing me out.
At least I got my um... income statement money. Which I wanted to go towards my new laptop but I might need it incase I lose my job or my benefits. If I lose both, I'm royally fucked.

pleased

Okay, right now I'm so grateful for my lazy ass getting out of bed and making mashed potatoes. I'm so full and pleased. Thanks, you lazy bitch!

you beautiful thing

Look at this beautiful cutiepie! :) Was just lurking around on the net and came across this, then remembered what day it is. Happy birthday, you beautiful thing. The most beautiful flag ever.