Should I be worried?

Okay, I woke up early today cause I was too excited about getting a new laptop today. Which I probably won't cause... why would I get what I want!?

Yeah, what got me writing is this... for a while now, think it's only been this year, I read things wrong. Like when I read stuff on the internet, be it on social media or news or whatever. It's really noticable and annoying cause I need to reread a sentence soooo many times. Like, my brain sees words that are not there. Right now there was a sentence that started with "Mother Nature..." and I saw "More Nature...". Like why does my brain invent these words!?!? It happens all the time, several times a day. And when the sentence doesn't, obviously, make sense to me I have to read it several, several times again, before my brain sees what's actually written. It happens both in english and in estonian. Should I be worried? Is it the pills I'm taking? I get enough sleep. I'm not more distracted than usually, before.

Must have been dangerous

I could have sworn I posted the story about those crazy premonitions I had about my brother when I lived in Ireland. Maybe I'll post it one day. Anyway, had another premonition about him a few days ago.
I had a dream I was at my mum's and we were hiking. We weren't exactly at my mum's house, just in the area where she lives. I said I wanted to go by her house so I could see the dogs. I kinda left her behind and was walking back  and forth without finding the dogs.
There was a young woman who was teaching some little school children to sing or something, outside where we were hiking. There was a bench behind her where her infant was sitting and he/she fell off the bench. I rushed to help it back up. Me and mum were thinking the young woman was a really bad mother.
And at some point Lauri had got into a car accident. Near the baby and hiking place. I can't remember now or maybe it never came out in the dream but I had hurt my right forearm really bad trying to save the infant and my brother.
And then me and mum were at a hospital where we were listening to some doctor saying how my brother needs to go to India to heal him. And my mum had to buy a hospital bed for him. And I thought it was stupid we had to buy the bed and asked mum why. She said "cause it's sterile, duh!" Apparently my arm was in a worse shape than my brother.

Yeah then called my mum later that day after I had woken up and told her that. She then said brother had been out til 3am one night being driven around. Must have been dangerous then.

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I don't understand this

Okay, I'm pretty sure I'm just PMSing hard. Had some pink-y stuff going on before. Thank goodness.
Everything sucks at the moment. This fucking weekend is so stupid!
The whole laptop thing.
Then my bike stand-spoke thing.
My fucking wellbeing.
And I bet I will have a shit ton of problems at work tomorrow.

Why is it such a major thing that I have a new laptop? What is it the universe's problem that I have a new laptop? What the fuck else am I gonna do at home alone? Ugh, I don't understand this. It's stressing me out.
Oh yeah and I wanna see the universe shit on me for buying this caramel cake, to pamper myself and make myself feel better, when I have hardly any money for regular food. I bet something got fucked up with my pension and stuff and I won't even get money on friday. Fuck!

So now I'm awake... feeling like crap

Okay, everything sucks right now! I don't have a new laptop, my damn bike stand is hitting the spokes when I'm riding which annoys the crap out of me and then it's my health.
Since last thursday I thought I've been having little cramps and pms. It is sort of unusual for me to have oms for that long. I can't explain the cramps but the nausea and anxiety and shit is probably cause of my damn pill, Olanzapin, that I'm trying to taper off. And this pills has messed up my periods before so maybe the cramps are connected to that aswell. I hope it's just pms though, a bad one. Like I couldn't sleep at all cause I was feeling too sick. I took a cerucal and valium but didn't make it much better. So now I'm awake... feeling like crap.

And I still hope that at least my cactus will thrive out of this horrible situation after the replanting.

a poor choice

So, Matilda is gone. It had a charging glitch. Maybe it's a normal thing but it would decharge itself when it was plugged in. They wanted to send it to warranty maintenance but I said I don't want a fixed laptop, I want a new working one. I only had the thing for three days.
Now, I want them to replace it or I want my money back. If I get money back, I will buy the same one from the same shop, like same brand and make but obviously a different laptop. There's only one left. I hope it works fine. If I can't get that, I have another one picked out already.
This past week has been all about ringing the customer service and going to the shop. Ugh.

Anyway, I also got to replant my cute little cactus today:

 I went to the shop with mum on friday. We didn't find the cute flower pots at first so I picked up this gray-ish, green-ish one. Later we found the cute ones aswell but I liked this one best. It's simple and earthy. There was one really cool square one but it was too big.

 Put some stones in first.

 The had to put in some "regular" soil which I dug up from behind our house lol. And then I put the cactus earth in it.

It said to water in a few days on the packet but the soil was soooo dry I had to do it straight away. It's too much water I think. The wet patches on the pot are from me wiping the water off the window sill. But later on the pot turned dark all over. Maybe it was a poor choice?
Yeah, I hope it's happy in its new home and will flourish. Maybe even flower. :)